Thursday, October 12, 2006

Where to now?

Do you ever find yourself sitting there and wondering "what next?" That's how I feel right now. I'm in the middle of figuring out exactly what I want out of my career and what it is I want to spend my time focusing on. I'm having a hard time deciding which thing I want to focus on and that ends up confusing me; thus DE-motivating me. It's this stupid endless cycle of planning and thinking...thinking and planning. Yet I can't motivate myself to move forward and get into action. I know it's because I take it all too seriously. My Dad would probably tell me "Lighten up Louise!" And it's true. Anyway, I think I'm finally coming to some conclusions that will guide me through at least the near future and that's all I can ask, right? But don't get me wrong; I'm not melancholy about this. I'm just........quiet. Hopeful. Eager. I'm glad I do have a bit of design work for clients that helps keep my mind busy when I get tired of thinking and thinking and thinking.

On another note, my 10 year high school reunion was this past weekend. I have to say I'm glad I went. I ended up having a lot of fun and saw a lot of people I wanted to see again. It felt warm. It felt weird. But it felt happy. And then I blinked and it was all quick! But I'm relieved it's over with now. (I didn't LOVE high school. I was just sort of going through the motions while I counted down the days until I could move to the next step and just sort of coasted along as if in a blur). There were many amusing people and some people haven't seemed to change a bit (for the worse). Such is the way of life I guess. All I can say to sum it up is it was weird and fun. So, where to now???? What next???? And so it goes.....
(feel free to share any of your own reunion stories or career ponderings)

1 comment:

Romina Bacci said...

Hello friend!
I just read this post... so much alike... I totally understand you :) In my particular case, when I think too much I end up getting even more confused and doing nothing. Maybe a good option is to forget about it a little bit, play, relax and enjoy; and when you less think about it there's a clear idea in your head about what to do. I fight with myself because I wanna do it ALL, and it's just NOT POSSIBLE!!! (this last line is for me!!). So... I know you'll figure that out soon, meanwhile have a lot of fun girl!!!!!

Hugs & Kisses to you :)