Friday, October 24, 2008
A time to mourn, a time to dance
My lovely Aunt Carol passed away 2 days ago in a relatively sudden fashion. I'm not quite sure what to think as I'm in shock, but I know that I am sad. She's my Mom's older sister and is a huge inspiration in my life. Although it ultimately wasn't what caused her passing (but I'm sure it didn't help), she has lived for years upon years with multiple sclerosis. She had so much struggle with her physical body...and she was always so upbeat, loving, friendly, positive and humorous. I remember asking her how she got that way and she admitted that it wasn't easy at first...that she'd had a bout of depression after hearing the news she had this disease. She soon realized, though, that allowing herself to wallow was not helping her and wasn't serving a purpose in her favor. She decided to become proactive and she learned all she could about her condition...all while exploring new treatments and experimental drugs. This attitude, in light of so many adversities she has had in her life even besides the MS, has been a huge influence on how I handle adversity myself and how I choose to handle difficult times. I live by her example and am so grateful to her for showing us that even in the darkest of times we can find humor, a smile, a sense of acceptance to what we've been dealt. I will truly miss her, but I am excited for her and her new journey. I am pleased to know that she can move around effortlessly now and travel anywhere she wants as she couldn't before. I've already spoken to her as I briefly felt her nearby yesterday...and I felt an overwhelming sense of calm and peace. For now, I know that it is our time to mourn and her time to dance.